Say Yes!

I have learned to say yes. I used to say no or back away from choices without giving a voice, but now, it is time to say yes again. I feel much like a prisoner that has been set free. I was a prisoner without chains or bars, but a prisoner of my own making. I said no to opportunities. No to my dreams. No to people that were willing to love and support me. No to my own needs. I was a prisoner of fear and the word no. There was a time, and it wasn’t that long ago, that I couldn’t see possibilities. Each time I tried to poke my head in faith, I was driven back by “what ifs.” What if my world falls apart? What if I live my life alone? What if no one will ever love me again? What if people think badly about me? What I have found is fear is a horrible ghost, but a ghost it is. It is only a blurry image. You can put your hand through and feel the chill, but it can’t harm you. Just like Winston Churchill once said, “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” I said yes to me. I said yes to faith. I said yes to me being worth more. I said one small yes and many have followed since. Do I want to eat pie for dinner? Well, yes I do! I won’t eat it every night, but why not? Do I want to read a book, watch a movie, or take a trip, yes, yes, yes. It takes time to reclaim what has been lost. I takes time to adjust your eyes to the light when you have lived in darkness. Small, simple steps, small, simple yes, it is okay. I did in my heart what I knew I needed to do. I said yes to leaving. I said yes to ending the relationship that has caused me so much pain and heartbreak. I said yes to reclaiming my life. I hope I can help others say yes too.