Post, Post holiday

Yesterday did have some disappointing moments, like finding out I am not writing the CEO column any longer, and feeling like I am falling further down the rabbit hole as far as my career. But in away, that isn't a bad thing. Maybe it is time to move on to something new. It is okay to reset the course. This path may be at an end, but that doesn't mean there aren't new more exciting paths to take. God is my guide and I look for the signs he puts before me.

I went home last night and took Bear for another walk. It was relaxing and I couldn't help but notice the beauty all around me. I felt part of it, the tress, the breeze. I am part of life and it is good.

Then I found out my aunt died. I liked this aunt. She was different from the other sisters my mom had. The rest seemed old, stuck, miserable, sick. They are all gone. This one had life, she wore makeup, had a nice husband. I haven't seen her since I was a kid, but I remember my life at home was so much better when she was there. I hated to see her leave, knowing my mom would go back to being cranky again.

I called mom last night to say I was sorry for her loss. She is not going to the funeral. It is too far, she can't fly, she has colon issues. She has always had issues, but out of all her family, there is only her and a brother left. The cranky, self-loathing sibling survived and she is still hanging on. She said she wanted Jesus to come rather than die to meet him. Okay, this death thing is really scary.

Then I came to work, happy, calm, enjoying driving in with the dude, but find someone in the building just died. It seemed sudden. It is a shock. Life is fragile. It can be taken so quickly. You never know. The lady was sick, but she kept working. Will my final hours be at a job that I don't really like or will it be with people I love in the country I love, looking at the beautiful trees? You just don't know. There are no promises or guarantees with life. You get up every day and hope for the best and have some faith. I am blessed.