Purge

I showed up at work, this cold Monday morning, and I am in a good mood. The weekend was very cold, but fun. Saturday I attended a Christmas pajama party. Sunday was church and restorative yoga. All the while, cleaning the house and preparing for visitors. The dude's youngest is coming today, his oldest tomorrow and my son on Wednesday. The house will be loud, full and happy. I am excited.

I arrived at work to the news I was moving my cube. I want to move. It is a pain, but I think it will be quieter in my new area. I tried not to stress, as I have work to do and I should have dressed for moving, but the good thing is I am finally letting go. I had a trash can moved to the cube and totally trashed files and junk I have moved with me for years. Not only did I purge, I decided to take my time, not stress, not just throw stuff in the cube and get to work. I decided to take care of me first. How do I want my new work space. What makes me happy. So I slowly moved stuff, and unpacked. I put up photos of the kids and stuffed animals and mementos of stuff that I have accomplished and makes me feel good.

Letting go of stuff you don't need is very freeing. It made it easier to move. I made it feel more spacious. I took care of mine own needs, even at the risk of causing others to wait....something I really never do. This is a good sign. I finally am taking care of me. I finally care about me. This year of healing has done me good. Now to live again! That is what 2017 will be all about. Letting go of fear, loving myself to do what is best for me and be unapologetic about who I am. God made me, he loves me, he died for me. The least I can do is love his creation.