and then today

I went to sleep feeling disappointed and frustrated. Well, I didn't go to sleep right away, it took a couple of hours to finally shut down my brain talking negative smack to me. Sleep is like a miracle drug. Once I get some, even a nap sometimes, I feel so much better. Just resting improves my mood. Not only improves, there are times I forget what I was even upset about.

Sure I went to work and opened more hate mail from readers of the magazine I edit because it is totally online. That is not me. I don't take it personal. I do take it personal when I make huge mistakes that piss off my supervisors, but even my supervisor said the dog house I felt I was living in was in my own heard. Very wise words. I do get stuck in my own head.

And then today, I woke up fine. I did yoga, read my bible, prayed, went to work on time...worked all day and got things down, even on less sleep. Being productive makes me happy. I came home and practiced my horn and I feel fine.

So why do I get so down, sad, and negative so quickly sometimes over such menial things? Well, I don't know. I am happy and blessed to have my good days, energy and laughter. I take the blessings were I get them and hang on when the moods hit. Today was a good day!